So lame, but I’m superrrr fried from the work trial
Tomorrow I think I want to return to 1 hour long sits, or at least, think about duration. I’ve been wondering if 1 hour is excessive when you’re a beginner (but then, it’s what I did during the Finder’s course, and it go me to access concentration)
Wed 2025-08-06
only 10 mins, wah. should have messaged my friends to create accountability
Feel really fried after a day of the work trial
Tue 2025-08-05
Left it too late and broke my 8-day “1 hour long sits” streak!
Did 30 minutes from 23:30, intending to do an hour, but started to fall asleep during the sit
Goodbye to my 9 day streak! But it’s no worries. Back on the horse tomorrow, at an earlier time 🙏
10:00, did 10 mins → won’t make a report because it was short
23:00, did ~13 mins → super distracted
This is the hardest part of the journey! Super distracted, no clear benefits, feel like I’m failing. But it’s ok, it’s normal to have very poor shamatha at the start