01 - One line on what this is

This is my public-facing meditation journal, written so that Roger can see how my sits are going, and so that I have space to track progress over time

02 - Where I’m starting from

The last time I tried meditating regularly was pretty much exactly a year ago
- Meditation log (2025)
So I’m starting from scratch after another year of stuff like listening to podcasts for multiple hours a day, watching lots of youtube videos etc. And being super left-hemisphere captured too, super yang, locked in, feeling of time scarcity etc

45 Ways to Awakening at-home retreat in 2022, 10 day silent vipassana Goenka retreat in 2023, Jhourney at-home retreat in 2024
Never stuck to a solo practice for more than maybe 2-3 weeks

Improve my concentration (I think this is a key flywheel-y thing)
See benefits of meditating that give me the momentum to continue
- Hunch 1: see more emptiness in the things that bug me
- Hunch 2: experience the benefits of more shamatha
Surface and work on the main blockers/neuroses that make me averse to meditating
Come up with a positive vision, clarify why I want to meditate, the short/medium/long-term benefits
Meditate 5 days/week w/ Roger
Meditate daily w/ gf
Tweet about the experience as I go to get more positive feedback

My framing is something like this:
I was recommended the book “Saints & Psychopaths” by Bill Hamilton (Daniel Ingram’s mentor), with a name that the Saints section describes what enlightened people are like
I like the idea of Psychopath → Saint as a continuum of ~goodness
And I feel like I’m pretty saint-like with my gf, in large part thanks to Kensho
BUT I’m still a little shit to my family, who I find wildly frustrating. If you asked them if it seems like I’ve been on a “post-rationalist healing arc” they’d be like “idk if anything he’s more rude and impatient now than before”
My Dad is now 70, my Mum is 66. I’d like to be able to be nicer to them! And the rest of my family too